Monthly Archives: September 2013

advertising the eating disorder

i love to watch tv.

i really do.

i’m also probably the easiest person to convince to buy something after just watching a 30 second commercial.

think of all of those stupid products you see advertised on infomercials: chances are i probably own it.

so what’s the point of this little commercial rant?

no, i’m not telling you to go out and buy yourself a “magic bullet…”

the images we see on tv have so much of an impact on us.

they tell us what kind of shampoo to use.

they tell us where to buy jewelry.

they even tell us what to eat.

anyone remember this particular yoplait light commercial from 2011?

in the commercial, a thin woman is trying to rationalize eating a slice of cheesecake.

she thinks about “canceling out” the cake with celery.

she thinks about exercising while she’s eating.

but how does the video end?

she doesn’t eat the cake.

she instead eats yoplait’s “diet” version of their dessert line.

so what’s the big deal?

why was this advertisement eventually banned from airing on networks?

eventually, it was argued the commercial was insensitive to the millions of people with eating disorders.

i couldn’t agree more.

i had these thoughts multiple times a day when this commercial originally aired.

i remember thinking nothing of it.

there are so many impressionable minds watching tv; seeing an ad like that will justify “thinking about the wasted calories” and not eating.

justify depriving themselves to stay thin.

justify anorexic or bulimic thoughts.

justify something that can eventually kill.

maybe instead of promoting ideas linked to eating disorders, stations should air commercials like this:

we are what we watch.

we absorb more than we think.

we need to be careful what we allow ourselves to believe.

you are beautiful.

you deserve to see the truth.


always hungry: learning to eat again


you dream of food. you think about food. your reality is a constant battle with starving and binging.

you dream of food. you think about food. your reality is a constant battle with starving and binging.

your stomach growls.

you smile a little and feel as if you’ve won a small victory:

you’re hungry.

pro-ana sites have told you time and again this is what you want:

you want to be hungry.

you want to fast an hour longer than you did last time.

you want to feel hungry and if you don’t, you’ve one something wrong.

sound familiar?

for anyone suffering from an eating disorder, this is your painful everyday reality.

you starve yourself to feel any self worth.

you starve yourself to obtain beauty.

feeling hunger has become a regular part of your life, just as brushing your teeth in the morning.

for someone attempting to recover from an eating disorder, learning to eat regular meals is more of a struggle than some may think.

personally, i was a night eater, during my years battling anorexia.

i feared eating in front of others and would eat in secret late at night.

i was in a routine and had a difficult time changing this habit.

my body was trained to not recognize hunger and i prided myself for this unnatural trait.

when i began the first steps towards recovery, i was challenged by my nutritionist to start eating small “snack like meals” multiple times a day.

i’ll be honest, i cried frequently.

i was unstable.

i was unhappy.

i felt like a failure.

every time i ate, i would go to a mirror and analyze my body, searching for visible weight gain.

you are beautiful inside and out. that's the truth.

you are beautiful inside and out. that’s the truth.

so why am i telling you this?

why am i talking about my own struggle?

you are not alone.

you are not the only one struggling with learning to eat again.

it’s incredibly difficult, i understand.

sometimes we feel alone in our battle, with our personal struggles, because we work so hard to hide our condition from the world.

but know this:

you are not the only one.

learning to feed your body again is no easy feat, it took you time to get to where you are and it’ll take time to get back to a recovered “normal.”

you will have good days and bad days, but don’t give up.

for taking the steps toward recovery, you are already stronger than you know.

keep fighting and pushing forward, i believe in you.

you are beautiful.

you deserve to feed your body.

thigh gaps: everybody wants one

thigh gapyou look in the mirror and examine your body, for the 20th time today.

“my stomach looks fatter since i ate.”

“my arms are so saggy”

“i don’t even have a thigh gap.”

thigh gap.

it’s almost become a sacred wish.

the ability to stand with your feet together and look at the space in between your thighs, has become a dream you are determined to make a reality.

from countless squats, to restricting calories to running a little further in your workouts: the coveted thigh gap is the prize at the end of the race.

so many times, i’ve looked at my own reflection in the mirror and gotten excited to see progress towards space in between my upper thighs.

i still think that way.

you still think that way.

we all look at the models in advertisements, such as victoria’s secret, and wish to have their bodies.

their perfect stomachs, their toned muscles, their uniform thigh gap as they smile for the camera.

the truth behind "the thigh gap"

the truth behind “the thigh gap”

recently, i saw a photograph that changed my entire view on the subject:

some hips are not built for this kind of “beauty.”

to achieve a thigh gap, we’ve all been under the impression that there’s a formula that, when computed correctly, equals beauty.

a thigh gap does not make you instantly beautiful.

a thigh gap simply means your bone structure naturally gives you wider hips.

that’s it.

all face shapes are beautiful: round, square, oval, heart…

your face shape is simply bone structure.

same goes with your hips: narrow or wide, everyone is beautiful.

beauty comes from within, not the space in between your legs.

you are beautiful.

you deserve to love yourself.

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