Monthly Archives: February 2013

national eating disorder awareness week

Imagethis week is national eating disorder awareness week.

the week that the entire world recognizes your daily personal struggle.

the week the entire world acknowledges the cross you bare.

all week, events are held to acknowledge eating disorders and countless stories are shared to inspire change.

the empire state building lights up blue, green and white to show support.

dove participates with an inner beauty campaign.

facebook is filled with statuses and links shedding a light on these prevelant issues.

but why does this only have to be one week?

over 2 million women and 1 million men suffer from eating disorders in the united states alone.

that means 1 in 5 people suffer from an eating disorder.

for one week out of the year, the idea of self beauty is preached.

“you’re beautiful just the way you are.”

“don’t let others influence your perception of yourself.”

“inner-beauty outshines outer-beauty anyday.”

why do we only hear these ideas once a year.

people magazine displays perfect bodies on every cover.

while promoting celebrities to sell their product, the magazine is also selling a cookie cutter image of what you should look like.

this leaves you feeling like there’s something wrong with you.

like you need to change who you are to fit in.

you don’t.

you’re perfect just the way you are.

eating disorders are a life threatening mental illness.

are the tabloids to blame for this?

no. i wish they could be blamed.

who is to blame for this growing problem?

no one.

it’s not a choice to develop an eating disorder.

anorexia, bulimia, compulsive eating, self-harm… are not fashion statements.

these diseases are not an attention getter.

those effected try to hide their problems and their symptoms.

feelings of embarrassment and self-conciousness follow them.

eating disorders are serious and real problems.

i challenge you to make every week “national eating disorder awareness week.”

to not let the world forget about this “silent killer.”

this week is “national eating disorder awareness week.”

to the world this is just one week.

to you this is your life.

to me, this is my life.

you’re not alone. there’s an entire community of support.

for more information on eating disorders or to take the first step in getting help, click here

you are beautiful.

you deserve to know you are not alone.


don’t let it rule you

it has no feelings. it doesn’t care if you hate it.

so why let this rule your life.

why let it determine your happiness?

age is just a number. your weight is just a number.

you are beautiful.

you deserve a life free from self-hate. 20130227-102456.jpg

jennifer lawrence: the true oscar beauty

220px-85th_Academy_Awards_Posterahhhh the oscars.

the night that movies take center stage and the entire world stops to gather around their television set to see just who had that special something to capture the attention of the academy.

it’s also the night that all eyes focus on the fashion of the stars.

“who’s she wearing?”

“can you imagine your jewelry costing that much?”

“he looks so handsome in that tux.”

don’t you wish all conversation stopped there.

don’t you wish you didn’t focus on their physical appearance?

i do.

so often i think thoughts such as:

“she has gained so much weight.”

“her skin doesn’t look as good as it did last year.”

“why did she choose that dress, her arms look gigantic.”

however, after all is said and done, i’ve been extremely proud of one actress.

one actress has thumbed the tabloids and the snide remarks made about her physical appearance.

one actress is the role model of thousands of teenage girls and women alike.

jennifer lawrence.

jennifer-lawrence-oscars-2013-red-carpetat the red carpet, she wore a light pink strapless dress. it was simple and innocent and stunning.

but what blew me away was her confidence.

her ability to believe in her beauty.

her real woman beauty.

jennifer is different than other movie stars.

she isn’t a size 0.

she has hips.

she is a fit, healthy and beautiful woman.

lawrence has gotten upset about having her body airbrushed in magazine cover post-production.

as you can see in this before and after from a glamour campaign, lawrence’s body is completely transformed.

even her face shape is changed.

no wonder women are constantly chasing an unrealistic body image.

as jennifer has shown us, it doesn’t exist.

personally, i couldn’t be more proud of her last night.

she allowed a dress to show she is a real woman.

she allowed the world to see she’s proud of who she is.

she’s allowed the world to see she’s comfortable in her own skin.

she’s proving to women that all bodies are beautiful.

she’s proving that you are beautiful.

she’s proving you deserve to love the body you have.

your body is your home

this is your home.

your body is like a temple.

you are beautiful.

you deserve a safe “home.”

mental calculator

how many of you see food like this?

i know i do.

food has become merely a number. mental math, calorie counting, obsession…

today, let’s try to enjoy food; not the calorie count.

you are beautiful.

you deserve to enjoy your food.


in the eye of the beholder

IMG_0795you have things you don’t like about your body.

i have things i don’t like about my body.

for those of you with an eating disorder or some type of body image issue, your list is probably a little longer than others.

trust me, i’ve physically made a list.

this past weekend was president’s day and my college campus had a four day weekend. what college kid wouldn’t like to go home and enjoy time away and a little home cooked food?

sure, i love that stuff, don’t get me wrong, but this weekend i decided to go home for different reasons.

many of you can connect with me when i say i was having a “bad weekend.”

for those of you who don’t know what that means in the mind of an anorexic: i was having depressed thoughts and it really wasn’t safe for me to be by myself.

now don’t worry about me. that’s not the point of this entry. i just wanted to be surrounded by love and family distractions to take way from my internal struggles. that’s all.

anyways, back on topic again…

i was feeling slightly depressed and dejected about my physical appearance, so i decided to make a physical list of everything i felt was wrong with myself.

this was a rather extensive list and while i will not post everything i wrote, i will say many of my complaints were about physical traits i cannot control, such as the fullness of my face.

at the end of my eight hour bus ride, i arrived to the bus stop and was greeted by my boyfriend.

i put on a smile and pretended that i hadn’t spent the earlier part of my day scrutinizing my physical appearance.

as we began to drive off towards the suburbs, i turned and asked him what he liked best about me.

my right hand held the list i had made earlier and i was very curious as to what he would say. because my list was so extensive, i figured it would take him a couple of minutes to think of just one thing.

he smiled, grabbed my left hand and momentarily glanced at me as he began to describe every trait he enjoyed about me.

i’ll be honest, i almost cried.

not because i can’t take a compliment, but because i didn’t feel worthy of his words.

everything he likes best about me are my own personal insecurities. my “to-fix list” is his “i love this about you list.”

and yes, he even loves my full, round little face.

for the rest of the weekend that conversation got me thinking:

“i see myself through a critical lens. it is fueled by self-hate, destructive thoughts and lies. however, he sees me through love, compassion and friendship.”

honestly, it amazed me that the things i wish could be erased and changed were the very things other people could see as “beauty.”

your thighs that you wish were thinner might be part of someone’s ideal body image.

your arms that aren’t toned enough or are “lacking in muscle mass” might make someone feel safe when they are wrapped up in them.

i’ve learned it’s all in the eye of the beholder.

so now it’s your turn, i challenge you to try and look at yourself through the eyes of a family member or friend.

how do they see you versus how you see yourself.

it might just open your eyes to who you really are

you are beautiful.

you deserve to see yourself for who you really are.

you are loved

you are loved

in honor of valentine’s day, i’d like to take the time to remind you:

you are beautiful.

you are loved.

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